Just a thought

I think about the human race and its purpose. Why are we here? what do we have for this planet? Potential definatley we have done much, but we also limit this planets potential so greatly. As far as we know this planet is the only planet capable of supporting life, yet we are destroying it. Destroying it with our intelligence, that we tend to use so foolishly. We seam to want to resist everything, we need a war, we need to fight, otherwise we see our existence as useless. So we fight, we fight everything worth fighting for, some not. Whether its eachother, somthing else. Some we win with ease, some we lose, some we are still fighting, Even if we have no chance at winning. None of us are exempt from this, I myself find me to be fighting. I fight people around me, I fight the people around me, I fight the exhaust I feel everyday, I fight the want to sleep, I fight the spyware thats on my computer. I fight myself, I win for the most part, but there is one war that I cannot win, Iam frustrated by this. I know there is no way I can beat, or even fight this enemy. Yet I try, the war is my personal war against time. Time is my enemy, It never works for me. Is always against me. Ticking away as I fight it. I resist sleep to take advantage of it, I resist my body's, my own species natural programming to fight a war that I cannot win. I fight the facts that I know are true, but are they true, would I be fighting them if they were. Humans: A mammal that inhabits earth, True? No, we are a virus. We keep destroying everything, with this intellect we do not deserve. We join together, to overthrow and destroy. We are in fact the weapons of mass destruction. We do everything in our destructive ability to stop what we know will happen. Our instincts are sinister denial, hate, a want for revenge. Yet we love and nourish, but destroy, kill and torture. While our instincts are indeed evil, they are warm. A mother, her instinct is to love her child. She has no choice she is bound to her child. She will die for her child. She feeds, protects and comforts the child.

Christmassing

christmas twas very fun, matrix box set: I will be up all night with that.

Today

Manhattan to day, with Ava should be fun.

30 hours of pure PHP, Im still going.

Entering the World of PHP

Today I picked up a php book and got to work, PHP = god!!! Te dynamics and interactivity, so cool. I really like embedding it to XHTML with javascript: the ultimate web page.

Squarepusher

Long day, html moans and groans...squarepusher is making me feel better.

ever get HTML block?

I must say im at a lost, Im sitting here trying to write the sub-pages of fusion-vibes. Yet I can't seam to do it, I wanna do somthing really different. Hopefully somthing will come to me

the epidemy of all PC's

I thought I would share this with you all. In an effort to make some extra cash n the side I have become a "PC doctor" as some call it. So I filled out a classified, and got a few hits. This one old couple in their 70's called. The woman told me about how theres somthign wrong with her husbands computer and so on. So I went to go chekc it out. Hes running a shitty E-machines, with WinXP no service pack and no anti-virus/firewall whatsoever!!! So down Ad-aware, Spybot and a free trial version of Norton. I run norton, it picks up 79 things! I couldnt help but jot this al down and email it to my self 19 Web-dialers, 25 adwares, 16 spywares and 15 trojans. Not including the cookies he hasnt cleaned since 2001, DSO exploits and all that shit. His homepage, backround had been changed. His desktop was flooded with useless shit. And it goes on and on. I wasnt even going t try and save this comp. I reformatted the hardrive and put windows back in, downloaded SP2 and convinced him to buy Norton. So if you think you've seen a worse comp, fill me in.

Fusion-vibes

good news, www.fusion-vibes.com will be going up soon. you might wanna stop by.

Program-Life

I feel like im not living my life. I feel like everyday I start up a program that live smy life for me. All day it functions and does its job while I watch it from my computer screen. Eventually the program breaks down. So I write another one. and the cycle goes on and one